they are just like me

She is my spirit animal.

"Good grades aren''t enough. I need to do things" • I honestly hate her. She spent her whole life being told she was special and that she would be great and in the end it was a great wasted potential. And I see myself exactly in that. Running away from my dream job because I''m afraid of not being good enough after receiving criticism. And now I fear I will never be happy in what I chose.

"I want to be great or nothing" • I spent years not painting when I realized that I would never be an artist, or at least that I would never be able to make a living from it. Then I went back and stopped again when I realized that I would never be the best. There would always be someone better and I would never be able to create anything innovative. Because everything has already been created. Now I paint for fun but it's not always fun. Oh and I'm not the smart sister.

"No, I want someone to tell me what to wear every morning. I want someone to tell me what to eat. What to like. What to hate. What to rage about. What to listen to. What band to like. What to buy tickets for. What to joke about. What not to joke about. I want someone to tell me what to believe in. Who to vote for and who to love and how to... tell them. I just think I want someone to tell me how to live my life, Father, because so far, I think I've been getting it wrong. And I know that's why people want someone like you in their lives, because you just tell them how to do it. You just tell them what to do and what they'll get out of the end of it, even though I don't believe your bullshit and I know that scientifically nothing that I do makes any difference in the end, anyway, I'm still scared. Why am I still scared? So just tell me what to do. Just fucking tell me what to do, Father."

I also can't swim and I also think I would die in my one attempt to do something good in the world.

"–There's a cruel truth to it, isn't there? When there are two sisters so close in age, the more one becomes one thing, the more the other... necessarily become the opposite and vice versa. It's the way of things. If one is the Queen, must be the source of honor and all that is good, the other necessarily becomes the focus of the most... creative malice. Evil sister. Next to you, I will always be evil. Feckless... Lost... Lesser thing."

You can be absolutely certain that I would divide my brain into a part that goes to work and a part that is free, the moment the opportunity arose. And I would definitely threaten my intern that I would make her life hell if she didn't behave. And without even hesitating, my inner self would also try to kill my outer self by hanging... just out of spite. I would kill myself just to spite myself.

"What is this bullshit about 'what kind of person" I am? Maybe I'm someone who gives up!" • When the first thing went wrong in her life the first thing she did was try to change schools. I would do just that! Maybe I'm the person who gives up.

I can't let things go either. I would also hold on to the grudge of everything I lost. I would never forgive Negan. I would spend the rest of my life just mourning what I lost and what I could have had.

"This ain't been about critics, not about gimmicks, not about who the greatest. It's always been about love and hate, now let me say I'm the biggest hater"

I really relate to the moment when Peaches comes out of the "trance" because she wants to keep the necklace, so she asks them to resignify it so she can still have it. I feel like I would do that because I don't like throwing anything away.

"You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened The world ended when it happened to me"

She doesn't want to be touched as a way of protecting herself from other people's feelings and is always on the defensive and doesn't let anyone in. I'm just like her :(