♪ ༘⋆ lyrics that make me want to throw up

“this world is learning // this world is pure”

“either way we’re not alone // i’ll find a new place to be from // a haunted house with a picket fence // to float around and ghost my friends”

“well i walked into your dagger for the last time in a row // it’s like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow // where you can’t seem to hold me, can’t seem to let me go // so i can’t find surrender and i can’t keep control // you turn me inside out, and then you want the outside in // you spin me all around, and then you ask me not to spin”

“when you’ve outgrow a lover // the whole world knows, but you // it’s time to let go of this endless summer afternoon”

“once, i took your medication to know what it’s like // and now i have to act like i can’t read your mind // i ask you how your doing and i let you lie // but we don’t have to talk about it // i can walk you home and practice method acting // i’ll pretend being with you doesn’t feel like drowning // telling you it’s nice to see how good you’re doing // even though we know it isn’t true”

“maybe you would leave too // and we’d blindly pass each other // floating over the ocean blue // just to find the warm bed of our lover”

“you got a 9 to 5 so i’ll take the night shift // and i’ll never see you again if i can help it // in five years i hope the songs feel like covers // dedicated to new lovers”

“come to find out // i’m a can on a string, you’re in the end // we found our way out // of a suicide pack of our family and friends // in the background, i’ll be waiting”

“the autumn chill that wakes me up // you loved the amber skies so much // long limbs and frozen swims // you’d always go past where our feet could touch // and i complained the whole way there // the car ride back and up the stairs // i should’ve asked you questions // i should’ve asked you how to be // asked you to write it down for me // should’ve kept every grocery story receipt // cause every scrap of you would be taken from me // watched as you singed your name // “marjorie” // all your closets of backlogged dreams // and how you left them all to me”

“and i never minded being on my own // then something broke in me and i wanted to go home // to be where you are”

“and the movie’s always running in my head // all the people, all the lovers, all my friends // and i hope that they all get their happy end // in the end”

“what if i told you // i feel like i know you? // but we never met // it’s for the best // i can’t open my mouth and forget how to talk // cause even if i could // wouldn’t know where to start // wouldn’t know when to stop”