the sound of my life

“'Cause I don't know what I want Until I fuck it up“ “But I feel something when I see you now”

“It's so hard When it feels like my fault When I keep 'em so far Happens when I go dark I'm so unsteady”

“I hate it here so I will go to secret gardens in my mind People need a key to get to The only one is mine”

“I sleep so I can see you”

“And it's hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound It's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you You're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town And I just wanted you to know that this is me trying (And maybe I don't quite know what to say) I just wanted you to know that this is me trying”

“You only feel it when it's lost”

“I like to slam doors closed Trust me, I know it's always about me”

“Though I've tried, I can't pretend That I don't sit around and think about you When all I ever do is think about you” “She appears in dreams Chasin' after me”

“You gave me roses, and I left them there to die”

“I don't wanna die I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all”

“Catch myself thinking about you more than I should”

“I know it's over And it never really began”

“And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now” “I'm hoping that someone comes around And helps me figure it out”

“'Cause part of me wants you back, but I know it won't work like that, huh?”

“But I looked to the sky and said Please l've been on my knees Change the prophecy” “Let it once be me Who do I have to speak to About if they can redo the prophecy?” “Feeling like the very last drops of an ink pen” “I'm so afraid I sealed my fate”

“And when are all my excuses of learning my lessons gonna start to feel sad?” “Will I spend all the rest of my years wishing I could go back?” “They all say that it gets better, it gets better the more you grow Yeah, they all say that it gets better, it gets better, but what if I don't?”

“Could go to hell, but we'll probably be fine”

“You're the worst of my crimes You fell hard, I thought, "Good riddance"” “Gave me the best of that, I was so negligent Now I feel terrible 'bout how I handled it And now I, now I bet you resent all of me, all of it […] Promise I don't forget all of my fault in this 'Cause look at me, l'm alone, sitting here, staying home All of my self-control kinda got difficult But I deserve it though, I deserve it though”

“I'm only looking just to live through you vicariously I've never really been in love, not seriously I had a dream about a house behind a picket fence Next one I choose to trust, I hope I use some common sense But I cut people out, like tags on my clothing I end up all alone, but I still keep hoping But I wanna feel all that love and emotion Be that attached to the person I'm holding Someday, I'll be falling without caution But for now, I'm only people watching”

“While they're in paradise, I'm exiled in the sand If everyone has someone, then the math just isn't right And I'm the only outlier, the lonely archetype If everything is by design, well, I might disagree You all know something that I don't You all learned something that I fear I'll never know”